Tuesday, June 9, 2009


My blog is usually a happy place for me to come. To share bits of the good stuff that happens in our daily lives.

Today is not a happy post.

Steve suffered from anaphylaxis last night and I cannot describe the absolute horror and pain I felt when I saw him collapse unconscious.

He scared the hell out of me. He scared the hell out of himself.

You want to know what I did in my panic stricken state? Scream at him to get up and shake him.

I have this horrible guilt. Why the hell didn't I firstly ring 000?

Maybe when it's the person you love most in the world, you can't really think clearly?

Guilt aside, he is ok now, shaken, as we all are. But ok. Although now they have found he has an irregular heartbeat and are looking at that.


  1. Thank goodness he is ok, Beth. I can totally relate about what you did - I have done the same before to my hubby when he had an accident I just yelled at him first without realising at the time that he could have been blinded and badly burnt. I think it is just a panic stricken state we get into. Don't feel bad, I think it's normal.

  2. Firstly, Beth, big hugs for you both {{hugs}} I am glad that he is OK for now and will be looked after. Don't beat yourself up - panic is not a rational state. I know. Take care of yourself sweetie! :)

  3. Hi Beth,
    Oh my goodness, how terribly frightening for you. Don't worry about the panic thing, that is a totlly normal reaction when something happens to someone you love, I think the adrenalin then kicks in and gives you a rationality slap in the face then you can funtion. Big hugs to you and your family, I hope things sort themselves out ok. Take care,
    Tam Harris xoxoxo

  4. Aww mate, don't be hard on yourself, I don't know many people that would have reacted in a level headed manner!
    You're huan BECAUSE you panic in situations like that!

    Most important thing is that Steve is OK.

    Big hugs!

  5. Shit Beth, I probably would have done the same, that would have been as scary as hell.

    So good to hear that Steve recovered well from the attack, lets hope the irregular heart beat isn't anything serious.


  6. Beth I feel for you all and send loads of hugs to everyone too.

    DH has probably got a similar problem to what I had when I was 6 weeks pregnant with Grace. Mine was VT and my heart raced along and 360bpm. Anyway six months of drugs and fortnightly trips to Melbourne had Grace one week and swapped hospitals to have it fixed the following week. Send me an email if you want to chat about anything because it can be so overwelming and very scarey.

  7. Beth, we all panic when something like this happens. The most important thing now is that he got the medical attention he needed and will be looked after now.

  8. oh Beth that is terribly scary - I have no idea what I would do in that situation myself. I am glad he is ok. hugs, P

  9. Oh you poor thing. Poor Steve! I remember when CJ had an anaphylactic reaction. So scary!
    Don't be too hard on yourself. You were in shock. You weren't prepared. We all do things we wouldn't when we are caught unawares. Next time (and I pray there is NOT a next time) - you will be aware and you'll call. You've learnt from this time. That's all you can do. You did the best you could so you can move on and leave it there.
    Take care honey.

  10. I am really glad to hear all is well now. We are always our own harshest critics but don't be hard on yourself. Fear does weird stuff...

    Love to all of you...

  11. OMG Beth that is so frightening! Don't worry, I probably would have reacted the same if it was my DP! Thanks goodness that he is OK, but please don't feel guilty - you did nothing wrong! Thinking of you! X

  12. oh hunny...how totally scary don't beat yourself up...I don't think we can ever be completely sure of how we might react in any given situation no matter how prepared we might be and in this case you were taken completely by surprise. I hope that Steve's heart problem is nothing too serious and can be easily fixed, huge hugs to you xx